Well not so much of an excuse, but rather I've been making a lot of excuses for myself, and I can feel that these excuses are taking ahold of me. I don't like the feeling, I've been trying to shake it off for the past week. Really it's just me being so out of it from finals, and I just can't get out of this lazy funk. Maybe it's because even after all of my hard work, after passing all my of classes, I didn't really see that much of a result with what I was doing. It wasn't because what I was doing wasn't good, or I didn't try hard with it, maybe it's just that it wasn't the result I wanted, or maybe I'm being impatient. Either way, I'm getting out of this damn funk. Maybe it's fears, or nerves, or maybe it's just simply excuses, a reason to be lazy. But as I'm finding out, my mind doesn't know nor want to be lazy. It wants to create, inspire, motivate. I could be too hard on myself. But it's probably worth it. It's not like I'm going to turn into a Black Swan any time soon.